Pay me attention...says the woman..

I'm writing this blog to put my mind at rest. It's pretty simple, i'm sick of being single. Or, at the very least i'm craving some female attention. I would call myself a complicated being but like everyone else, i have simple needs! Every waking minute i have free (i don't have many of those at the moment!) is spent thinking about one of several girls. Here's where it gets messy, or i guess, complicated. One, is some years younger than i am, but has really been a good friend through a hard time. I don't think i want anything real from this girl but she is very attractive and i sometimes think about her in ways i shouldn't! Another direction i'm being pulled from, away mostly, is the girl i used to call my best friend. I guess its partly my fault but we have drifted apart very suddenly from each other and i was very hurt by how i was treated by her over christmas. It was the first christmas i really needed all my friends, as my dad couldn't be at home with us. She had being seeing someone and decided to keep it from me and say that we needed some time apart. Great timing. Girl one thinks i still love girl two but, and i mean this in the relationship sense, i don't love her any more and the only love for her i have is as a friend. But she is slowly withering that away, which i feel is a real shame. Outside of all of this i've been searching for someone compatible on the net, on sites like tagged and facebook, and more recently, fhm dates. What i don't know is whether to believe some girl's sincerity. Sometimes- maybe a self-esteem issue- i feel as though the people i have received messages from, are like moderators who make sure everyone gets a message off someone to feel like the site is working. Can companies really exploit our weaknesses so easily? I just wish that it was more simple. You tell a girl you like her, there's no beating around the bush. Then the girl says she likes you back and you agree to see each other. Oh to be back in the sixties!